So, I am sitting here listening to Madeleine Peyroux..

Here for your listening pleasure:

and my head is killing me. I never get headaches...it's just a sharp pain every few minutes. Enough to make me say "Ow." Charming. I assume it's sinus related or I have some kind of brain tumor. Ow.


Speaking of brains, a brain is a funny thing. It's funny how it chooses to selectively remember things from the past. It's funny how the smallest thing, no matter the significance can bring back memories so strong. Memories that try to sway your view of things when your rational mind knows that the memory itself may have been pleasant, but the entire ordeal was not. But what can we do? Hold the memories in our brains, I suppose, and appreciate them for what they are. Memories that will never be repeated. Ow.

Enough of this mushy shit. I hope this tylenol works fast.

I'm taking babysteps towards opening my other blog with Kris. Sweet Peas and Honey Bees. It's going to be a crafty-inspirational-artsy blog full of delightful things paired with an etsy store whenever I get around to making stuff to put in it. I think I'm gonna try to post tutorials once a week for doing crafty things. I've also been getting into the idea of sewing. I am capable of sewing, but I always...tend to wing it. I dislike patterns (not a smart idea)...and pins (though I am starting to appreciate them)..I can't tell whether I'm just lazy or a true ~artist~. I am thinking it's the former...

But I better figure it out because I'm going to be sewing my Halloween costume. I've decided on Aphrodite. Yes, I know it's lame...but I don't need to get a wig or any fancy makeup or order anything online...and I get to make a fancy dress! And wear a flower headdress and I could make a convincing Aphrodite...I don't think I could make a very convincing geisha or Snooki, sorry to say.

I wish I had the balls to wear thigh highs. I have a few pairs of thigh high socks, but I always end up feeling trashy when I wear them...and they're socks. I think this fall I'm going to make an honest attempt to wear thigh high stockings and not feel bad about it.











^^^ I WANT THESE. THEY ARE THE BEST OF BOTH WORLDS.

So, a real post.

A recap of my very first Proactive Tuesday™...well, it was more like a proactive monday-tuesday. I cleaned my GD room finally. Well..Not completely, I still have to put away all of my clothes. But I feel better already. I moved some furniture too!

My bookshelf is now residing next to my desk and everything is all organized and beautiful. Yes, I am fancy. I do fancy tricks with html. Do not be alarmed.


Anyway, I ran into a few problems. Spiders..dust...general laziness. Also things like not noticing my craft table/vanity was GLUED to my carpet. I had a modge podge spill about a year ago..I thought I was okay..apparently not. It took a lot of nail polish remover and a some scissors to get the leg of the vanity off of the carpet..blah but it looks okay.

But the moral of the story is that I actually did something. (Plus went to the gym!) And I hopefully will continue to do things. My next endeavor is to start up my craft/inspiration blog with Kris. Get some paid photography jobs. Start sewing my halloween costume. Buy a dremel tool and cut some eggshells. Do some crafts. Make some stuff. Make some money. Become youtube famous with Sandra..umm..plant some stuff. Take some pictures in the Santa Ana winds. Use film. Collect some leaves.


Yeah.

I'll post a better update later on, for now I just have 10 minutes to do a quick inspiration post before work.













as always, credits on my ♥

Fruit fruit fruit. I like fruit. I wish I could say I ate it as much as I took pictures of it. But no, I would rather stuff my face with french toast.


Here are some pictures I've taken of fruit, the most interesting subject in the world...to me.

One word. WINTER GARDEN. Well..that would be two words..but you get the idea. Part of me wants to enjoy the cool weather, (I use this term loosely, but I get cold. Gives me an excuse to eat soup and wrap myself in a blanket and drink hot cocoa and cuddle..which..I guess I do all of that year round anyway, but that is beside the point.) the other part of me wants to spend my days laying around on the empty beaches enjoying the water and the 80 degree weather we will no doubt have until November...Basically, I'm just excited for everything. Anything!

I have a pumpkin. It's probably about 15-20 lbs right now!

My new favorite activity is going out to the fig tree (THAT EVERYONE HATES) and shaking it violently so all of the fig beetles fall out and fly off. Then I usually do some running and crying because I'm afraid they're going to land on me. I wish I could say I was lying and that I don't really engage in bizarre and alarming behavior like this but ..no. I do.

But..uhh..Moving on, I'm gonna post some pictures of what I only wish I could have..








Plus my future HOUSE.

Can I just say that Squidbillies is one of the greatest shows of our time? Because I think it is. Maybe I just identify well with ignorant, inbred, talking redneck squids that live in rural Georgia.

I bought a to-do list notepad tonight from work because it was $2.58. It has a tree on it and I feel more organized already! Except, I'll have you know everything in my life is in total disarray at the moment. But the tree pad makes me feel better..Because I know one day, in better times... when my desk is not covered in underwear and socks I will have that tree pad there and I'm gonna write something on it. Something important..or stupid. Probably stupid. Probably my own name. Several times in a row. Maybe a heart or 12, too.


Anyway, enough about my life full of mystery and intrigue, I think I'll just post some more inspiring photos before I go to sleep.






This picture is so romantic to me for some reason. I die. I love it and the idea of it.